@NolanCrush
I am far more charitable with you than most people here which is why I've tried to explain what you're doing wrong countless times before despite it obviously being against my best interests; but come the fuck on now, this is an obvious cycle. You say something stupid or get banned somewhere, someone screencaps it here and you spend several pages arguing with them, then when you run out of steam you give a non-committal concession and a few Like or Agree reacts just to get people off your back, not because you've actually understood what they're saying.
You seem to have conflicting stances where you claim you want to be part of a community, but you go from naught to sixty on the aggression the moment you face the slightest bit of conflict. Communities, like friendships and families, don't work like that - if you can ignore the issue because it doesn't really matter then you should do that, otherwise you should try to reconcile your differences in a civil matter. It's because you
don't do that and instead get angry and sperg out that people respond to you in turn, that's why the Discord groups just think "this guy's trouble" and ban you, and why people here mock you.
I realise I'm probably wasting my time and you're not going to let this sink in, but if you
genuinely want a second chance the only option left right now is the nuclear one: burn the Nolan Crush name. We've joked about your poor opsec for years now and you've convinced yourself it's a cute character trait, but those days are over; you're a known problem to the vtuber community from how much drama you've involved yourself in. Moderators in every community even tangentially related to vtubers know who you are and the fights you've caused, and will keep an extra close eye on you and ban you the first chance they get. Is that fair? Who's to say, but life in general isn't fair, and sometimes you have to just suck it up and cope.
I don't mean trying to sneak in to places you've been kicked out of as NotNolanCrush, I mean completely abandoning the identity, the negative behaviour it's associated with, and all its baggage; log out of every account called Nolan Crush, don't revisit any of the communities that include people you've aggro'd and instead find new communities, read the room and engage with the people already there on their terms (since they run the place), and be a new man who learnt from the mistakes of the old one. If you're doing it right we'll never know it's you. If you're doing it wrong, well... see you back in this thread in a few days.