It's her autism with the thing about not wanting to "ruin the magic" by interacting with people she really looks up to and admires/respects. She also keeps refusing to do a collab with FallenShadow, for example, because of this reason. Same thing also applies to the fleshtubers she likes; the only reason she called into Metokur's final Odysneed stream was because it was the last ever time for it to be able to happen, and she spilled spaghetti hard in that call-in.