Transcribing that Vocaroo for those that want to read and not listen. Enjoy.
*sighs* *crying and whimpering* I just... I just I hate my father so much... man
I don't know what else to say other than that, only just that's not it
I did 4 hours of work yesterday and he wants me to do 5 more! Because he blocked the computer at 1:30 *snort sniffle through a huge schnoz* originally I thought I wouldn't be able to do all that in time for the birthday karaoke, but if i had woken up right then i would've; now, that doesn't mean that he doesn't deserve ridicule for this, because at the end of the day working for 5 hours for someone who isn't used to working that long and doing--you know all that stuff---*inhale* And I wasn't just working in one place, like I did at my job. Snort. I was doing uhm outside work, mostly doing inside work: ya know moving stuff, lifting stuff, all of that. And I'm not used to all that, and you know what he says, "Fuck you I don't care."
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mmm-hhh-ahh, When I had an argument with him he just refused to accept that he was wrong; he even admitted the more I argue with him the more he was going to not accept he was wrong. That's not a rational person! That's not a logic based person. That's what an egomaniac does. "Oh ya you're proving me wrong and destroying my arguements?! I'm just going to pretend, like, I'm, not being destroyed."
*labored sigh* He... ... He says insane shit, That is clearly just projection! ... Because EARLIER I said that uhm he didn't block the Peee Ceee-uh, so I didn't think I had to do a lot of work. *licks dry ass mouth* Uhm, and also that, and yesterday i said that--I told him--that, I told him why I was able to get on the computer, that there was an obvious password hint and I figured it out. HE interpreted me saying these (either "true" or "two" he's a mush mouth soz) as saying that he was to blame for why I stayed up, that he didn't block the computer--even though the whole point of all of this is that even though... even though the point of a lot of my rant literally that blocking the computer doesn't do dicky. It doesn't FUCKING do anything! And also, I didn't mention staying up at all, but of course he just hassss to strawwwman. *musical inflection* And he hasss to misrepresennnnt. It also seems to show his... extremely egomaniacal idea that "Ya everyone agrees with meeee and how IIIII do things, even though I show no sign of that." He also somehow interpreted me just telling him about the password, and how, thhhe hint being easy to figure out allowed me to get on it--somehow that becomes uhm *dad man voice* "You're blaming me!" Meanwhile he blames other peoiple for his actions literally all the time. So sounds like projection to me. He also claims he's not being vindictive, and then proceeds to admit that he's only doing this because he's affected. Uhm. He uh literally OUTRIGHT admits that he thinks my time is significantly less valuable than his. And that, is because I would be paid less than him, 5 times less than him. And because I have less time, because he has less time to live than I do. So ya' know that means it's less valueable because fuck you I guess. I told him about how mom said that she was sorry that I, that dad, that my dad was doing this. Yesterday. Before I even finished the work for that day. And pointed out that that means the person whose computer was messed with, doesn't even care, nearly as much as that. To which he's like, *gay nerd voice* "Well she's not the one affected, I am!" And even said that even when my brother's computer broke that he wasn't affected only dad was, because he had to fix it. Ya know, before immediately retracting it, because he realized how stupid that was, even he couldn't get away with it.
So, ya know, it's almost like he thinks he's more important than everone else... And him being affected by something, mea- is more important than other people being affected by it. He even had the audacity to say that she wasn't affected by it because she wouldn't have to use the computer until last night, until after he fixed it. By the way, he even had the audacity to say that *villain old man voice* "I ruined his day," because "I had to fix your mom's computer." Even though that is, by every metric, not true. Less than a quarter of his day was spent fixing mom's computer... I know this because it was Saturday and he'd be up at least 16 hours... .... *sigh* ...
I just, *sigh* Could I have prevented having to do all 13 and a half hours before getting it back? Yes, if i had gotten up sooner, I could have done, work, before, the... streams. I shouldn't have to. The fact that he admits he values my time sooo little and that he feels the oooonly victim in this situation, it speaks not just to his egomania, but to borderline narcissism, in this case : ).
Vindictive... Uhm *clicking* according to... according to Dictionary dot com, Vindictive means: disposed or, di-, inclined to revenge; vengeful; Vengeful means: desiring or seeking vengeance; vengeance means: infliction of injury, harm, humiliation, or the like, on a person by another who has been harmed by that person... Violent revenge. I can't think of a better word to describe what's going on. He admitted it. He's not doing this, *villain man voice* "because he care about mom," he's doing this because HE had to spend 3.5 hours, because he THINKS that myyyy getting on discord, a web forum, holodex, youtube, and a translation site, corrupted windows. And it couldn't have possible been the two things mom had (MUSH MOUTH) for several days.
I'm not saying, that it couldn't have been me, I'm not saying I didn't do anything wrong--perhaps I did--and ya, punishment is fine, but it has to fit the crime and not be like, "oh I'm mad so I'm going to... tire you out for several days, put emense amount of pressure on you, RUIN your days, ruin things for you." That's, that's vindictive, by every metric, by every measure, that's vindictive.
I have to do this speech wise because speech to text doesn't work on my phone and if I didn't do this this way I'd have to type it out and that'd take an hour. When I was critisizing him he said *evil voice* "Oh you can leave. You can move out." That's, that's honest to God what he said! When I pointed out that, even mom didn't care; before coming up with all his excuses for why HE'S STILL RIGHT even though the person whose computer it is didn't care. *Schnozz snort again*
*whimpering jewish voice in brooklyn* I just wish I had a normal father. I wish I had a father who gave a shit about how he treated pee pol. Who wasn't such a severe egomaniac that it looked like narcissism. *whimper*
ANNNNNNNNNNNNND END SCENE. He was right, it did take close to an hour to transcribe, apologies for mistakes, he speeds up and slows down randomly and has a serious case of mush mouth.
because his Dad is supposedly wrong about the reason his useless ass didn't take the dogs outside for 16 hours.
and here I was thinking they were fucking assholes even to their parents, guess God's Strongest Sister Beater will always surprise me with his stupidity.
