52:00 talks about not wanting to get into the Sony/Helldivers discussion, says she's been on the receiving end of people making accounts to turn things into a big deal. Says everyone has a right to say what they want and this comes with the territory of being a streamer. This is not a topic she can be unbiased at the moment because of past experiences
Says she wasn't always in a place were she couldn't establish firm boundaries, and if she wanted to talk about something or keep quiet she had to do the opposite, now she has the choice to choose to do things or make mistakes and is ok with that.
55 Wants to stay in her patch of land of twitch do the things she wants and not have an opinion on everything. Another thing she learnt is that no matter her opinion it will upset somebody, which sucks. For example if she wanted to defend herself someone would be angry about it. Says that for example if she spoke about a controversy or hot topic it would make trolls come to the stream and bother the momos, says you can clip VODs as long as you are not malicious about it.
Mata loves having confrontations with people close to her that she loves, example Mint they are close enough they can disagree on stuff, you can be friends and not agree on everything. Says she's been a fairly private person in that if she goes through trauma she's ok with eventually sharing it. She's noticed on herself she's become more private and doesn't want to have anything online because people hang to something you said once and it's taken outta context, gives an example if she said something 8 years ago people today would say she lied today if she changed her mind today. Always want to hash things out in private.
1:02 She's overly cautious because of her last job. Has tried "living a little" something happens and goes back to the mentality "OH I SHOULD BE OVERLY CAUTIOUS".
1:03 Old fans thank you but she's excited for the day she has more new fans than old fans, because people trickle in and out, a lot of new people won't know about "old lore stuff", panicks about that "they know what they mean" (momos are panicking and crying). Excited for three years down the line, old job is a big part of her journey, can't approach her job legally but not trying to erase it, would do it again, did lots of things learned a lot and met lots of people, VERY HAPPY IT HAPPENED. Talked in a patreon episode she'd do everything the same because it has helped her about earning about herself. But eventually wants it to become a part of her journey and not a big part. Compares it to her dead parent. As more time passes and has less links to old stuff, not trying to erase old fans, if paths ever cross again happy to have you but it is how it is.
1:06 Not trying to erase anything from her past, would not be here today without what she experienced, happy momos found her again, and if it's not the same no hard feelings. Golden era of streamers, if for whatever reason you don't enjoy it take a break, watch things that make you happy and being a fan can be exhausting.
1:09 reason she wanted to talk about it is because things have been on her mind, talked with mint and won't talk about anything. HAD TO SET BOUNDARIES WITH PEOPLE LATELY, where people wanted to talk about Hollywood and she doesn't want to hear about it, doesn't work there anymore. At some point she doesn't want to know anymore. It's not that she doesn't care, starts metaphor about graduating highschool and being friends forever, told some people that you're sometimes friend with people because of work and that closeness and proximity makes you friends, feels she comunicated that idea to a lot of people. Maybe one day paths will cross again, at the moment she only has one close friend which is her Rosie friend, because she's someone that trascended the work friendship. no hard feelings for other stuff, doesn't want to be included or talked about. LITERALLY SAYS "I REALLY HOPE THIS DOESN'T GET TAKEN OUT OF CONTEXT FOR SOMETHING NOT GOOD" "I don't think it will I think I explained myself pretty well" (I MEAN YES BUT NO, WOMAN)
SAYS IN MOST CASES SHE'S BEEN QUOTED PROPERLY LATELY, people kinda understand. Starts Helldivers collab. At some point if people wants to talk stuff outside of her streams that's none of her business. Cuts conversation short, finishing statements, just that she wants to be her own person inside Vshojo, wants that as time goes on she'll be able to carve her own path, but that she doesn't want people to think she's ungrateful for the opportunities, says she's been luckier in a few years than most people in content creation. People join collab and helldiver starts