You see I was chronically tistic and depressed that I wasn't fun to be around and I didn't like that.
So I started asking myself "What Would Dashie Do?" but because I was a sperg I couldn't understand what a 20% cooler pony would do in social situations. So I theorized if I manifest her as a tulpa then I can just ask her directly. Unfortunately I am actually just a huge femboy and not a cool true-blood autistic so I lacked the attention span and dedication to maintain focus for long enough to make it happen.