Wasn't that Sawa? At this point i just mix everyone together.
I never understood her appeal other than her abs thing that probably was the thing that made her pop off.
Absolute mess of a rambling longpost about Sayu's stream ahead
Current mood
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Tuned in late to her stream so missed the beginning of the meltdown but it was a rough one. At least on the level of this one.
Hunting for archive atm will update if found, currently kicking self for not learning how to archive shit earlier.
Expect at least some clips from dramafags who archive everything she does in the coming days.
This is not even slightly in proper order/complete as it was a shitshow/my pc died in the middle so I'm just "string of conciousness" schizoposting what I remember
Learnion and new guy are both fucking extra-parasocial weirdos, learnion calls her "Miss Sayu" and says weird shit in chat.
- Apparently some newer guy in YT chat continues some dumbshit argument he had with someone in Mints stream who he saw in Sayu's stream too and mentions Mint by name in chat
- This is likely him, it matches what he's posted in her Discord as well / Archive
- YT regular (learnion is his name I think) decided to start arguing with this person in chat further bringing attention to it until Sayu noticed
- She talks about how she had reached out and tried to be friends but it wasn't gonna happen
- New guy apologizes and shuts up but Learnion says some dumbshit about how he didn't want her to read the message he posted in her chat...
- Sayu talks about how she always tries to pay attention to chat and any regular should notice that
- Learnion just won't fucking stop talking about it and constantly apologizing until Sayu goes from saying she doesn't hold it against him to telling him to fuck off
- Starts looping about how she has reached out to pretty much every ex-Niji to try and be friends but still shunned.
- Those who suffered the same as her and were even helped/bolstered by her actions won't give her the time of day
- Talks about how she's still blacklist by most large indie vtubers and the big 3 corpos
- She's been raided by multiple people who then would not talk to her after when she tried to reach out
- People she does collab with get harassed by Nijisisters still
- Her stupid ass Tangia shit starts getting troll dono's in the middle of this cutting her off
- Stops playing the game completely and goes to end screen
- Crying begins somewhere around here
- Talking about how she still doesn't have a place she belongs and never really has (remember she's an orphan, not on the best terms with her adopted family, divorced, etc. and this has been something she's felt even before/beyond vtubing)
- She joined Niji to make friends more than anything
- Even someone who was ostracized similar to her who she had bonded with over this has since found a group and they've grown apart
- Talks about how she considered doing sex work back in highschool and just wanting to die
- At some point someone brings up how Zaion's model was wasted.
- Sayu talks about how she tried every way she could to get the artist to work with her again and the artist basically said that she didn't care about the wellbeing of the artist cause she asked for them despite what happened at Niji (artist is JP)
- She regrets speaking out at all and wishes she'd waited for all these other dominos to fall before doing something
- Tangia dono clapping and cheering happens and gets muted then she stops talking for a couple minutes
- Calls out youtube dramafags who don't watch her for anything beyond drama and come in to stir shit
- Talks about trying to join a corpo multiple times where she knew people and being told no. (most likely Vshojo, would have been pre-Kuro/Mata)
- Talks about wanting to quit streaming even reconsidering doing sex work cause she has no clue what to do for another job anymore (guess she can't go back to tech for some reason).
- Still sometimes wishes she was dead
- Going to take the weekend off and try and enjoy the convention
- Apparently her manager was in chat trying to cheer her up with the rest of chat instead of shutting this shit down
This is the new guy
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Hopefully a positive ending note. She's pretty much done being an indie and plans to seriously look at joining another corpo. Fishman I know she's a mess but please take her, wouldn't be the first trainwreck who joined.
When I made this shitpost I did not expect tonight to go the way it did...
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Migo me or whatever but I just want her to stream and be happy. I know she gets in her own head way too fucking much and self-sabotages constantly but her time in Niji and her "terrible" sin of trying to make it a healthier workplace for all of EN is a scar that will never leave her as long as she continues being a content creator. She will even admit she fucked up in some ways at Niji and wasn't blameless but they way they slandered her and how she's continually treated is fucking bullshit. Joking about being sponsored by "Deez nuts" was on her list of reasons for termination, come the fuck on.
Sayu has some diehard fans that probably do more damage to her mentally than some of her biggest haters.
1. I don't think she should do porn. I don't think she has the body/face for it.
2. This whole trauma comes from abandonment issues of her wanting friends and feeling accepted. I feel like shes at an age where finding a good/close friend group will be hard because people her age are all looking into starting a family or doing their own shit.
3. She has a ton of people that support her and care about her in some way shape or form yet she always focuses on the bad and its not healthy.
4. She needs a ton of therapy.
5. People that have pushed her aside because they dont want to associate with her due to the Niji drama are disgusting imo.
At this point I fear she will just end up backflipping and I hate the thought of it.
Long hair Suba is best Suba
Is she on therapy? She needs therapy. BADLY.
Yes, she had a tech job at google but she was earning more streaming back when she had like 20k followers. Also working a 9-5 kills you inside so I understand why she quit. She could still have a really good resume and should maybe consider moving to somewhere that's not commiefornia. Shit maybe go south or to the east coast where people seem to be more friendly. Maybe that's what she needs.
Clip tax
Sayu has 3 ways to go on about her life now:
