The closer it gets, the cynicism is really shedding away. I'm being confronted with the core bedrock of what got me into Hololive. Sure I knew other Holomems before Gura, but it really was her that I started consistently watching and learning. It was through her I would learn who Amelia Watson was, who the one with the pink hair is, I would basically be fully immersed in the vtuber hobby. I'm not saddened by her leaving, it's more like the weight of 5 years crashing on me at once.