The horse dropped a manifesto
From memory a tldr
She apologizes for worrying the fans with her reaction to the trolls
Says that she is human like anyone else and to expect a content creator to be less human in their reactions to hate is unrealistic
She says that a content creators biggest critic is themselves so 1 negative comment sticks in more than 1k positive ones
She says she can't change how negative comments make her feel but she can strive to react(or not react) to them publicly in the correct way
She talks about how streaming is way out of her comfort zone but thought vtubing would be a good outlet hobby (her former hobby was writing and given the length of these manifestos, shocker) she is proud of how she can stream despite feeling uncomfortable putting herself out there and is grateful to the Umarmy for making it worthwhile
She talks about how when she started she was having fun but a military transfer got in the way of consistently creating. She let it fall by the wayside for months until someone reminded her of it
When she checked her socials she noticed new people had DM'ed her saying that they found out about her from Pippa
She looked Pippa up and was shocked that such a big vtuber (in comparison to her 300subs) would know of her existence
She apparently got the chance to talk with Pippa shortly and it inspired her to go all in and take vtubing seriously (good job Yabbit)
Throughout the manifesto she consistently reiterates how grateful she is for the Umarmy and states a desire to be strong for them and keep going even if doing so is costly to her because the good outweighs the bad
She says that she dealt with a lot of bullying and abuse growing up but did not elaborate "none of the pain I have experienced as a Vtuber so far is any worse than what she has already endured in the past"
Similarly she reiterates she will never go into detail on her service
She says that despite her love for the military she will never shill it as something you should do if you don't want to. It makes her happy but it's not for everyone
All her luxury money goes right back into vtubing over personal possessions for herself
She has amnesia she didn't elaborate beyond her memory lasting a few days at a time
She has trouble reaching out to collaborators due to anxiety and getting trapped in a feeling of distrust that the collaborators in question are not just opportunists looking to use her
She says many kind creators have reached out and she strives to do more collabs and get over the anxiety
She asks the Umarmy to take this journey with her even if she herself will not remember most of it due to her amnesia she is fine with that it only matters that she feels she is providing a fun time for others
I think that covered everything important chat gpt was lacking a fair bit
I was a bit taken aback honesty, after all the "she's our therapist" talk when Dizzy is so.....Dizzy
It takes a menhera to help a menhera