On paper, I despise Lia. She's the stereotypical ADD Tiktok zoomer with a heavy heaping of degeneracy piled on top. I cringe everytime she brings up Thresh or Glamrock Freddy and invariably begins gushing about how she wants them to plug her holes (including, presumedly, the father-shaped hole in her heart). She spends the first 30 minutes to an hour of every stream ranting instead of getting to the actual stream topic, and while I adore this quality in streamers like Sava or Sara, in Lia I dread it because it means I'll inevitably be exposed to some fucked up yaoi porn or the like. Even with streams I say I'm looking forward to, like last night's YLYL stream, I inevitably regret it because instead of enjoying seeing her harm herself for my viewing amusement, I instead get frustrated at how her lack of self-control and shit sense of humor cause her to laugh at literally every braindead zoomer humor video she's sent, and how she has to de-rail the stream to rant about how much she wants to be Knuckles' bicycle. I should never watch a Lia stream.
And yet, whenever I see she has a stream scheduled, while I am filled with dread and anxiety, I also feel excitement. Anticipation. When the streams begins and I hear that Needy Streamer Overload remix, I become animated, the adrenaline flows through my veins. "It's Lia time!", I think to myself, "Lia! Lia! I can't wait to see Lia!" I love Lia streams. I can't explain it. I imagine this is how it must have felt to go on Liveleak everyday and watch gore videos. Such a combination of horror, disgust, and degeneracy should make you avert your eyes, but, for some reason, you can't. It's awe-inspiring in its morbidity, you can't help but watch the depths of depravity humanity will sink to for its own purposes. Every Lia stream is like a glorious trainwreck, and no matter how bad I know it is for me, I can't help but watch. I love her. I hate her. And I'm a little afraid of her, too.