This was all written on the 9th of November 2023, just for context sake.
After much consideration I am actually releasing this info. HannahHyrule , also known as @hannahvtuber aka my wife, are no longer together. For years our relationship was very rocky but we made it work, we got through the rough patches and we presevered. The tender and loving moments were amazing and most of what I remember. We took many breaks in our relationship, things got bad and we basically did not date for almost the entirety of 2019.
In December of 2022 I proposed to her with my whole heart, she accepted gleefully and we had plans to live together.
I am Venezuelan and staying in the United States through a Temporary Protected Status (TPS) clause that the government is offering Venezuelans. This TPS gives me the right to employment but it is a harrowing task to explain to employers what it all means, most employers have never heard of this immigration clause and don't believe me, and the others don't even bother, meaning I have a hard hard time finding employment because of my niche immigration status. So I brought up the idea that if we truly do love each other and are gonna stick together, lets do the legal part of the marriage first so we can fast forward the paperwork and due process of getting the marriage papers settled in and easier for me to find work as a non-protected resident. She agreed and we got married in a moment of pure love, I do believe we were the happiest we could be, we stayed a night at a beach hotel and it was the best night of my life if I am being completely honest.
For a few more months we would be okay, until around October I started to notice a declining love interest coming from her. She seemed distant and more "friend" than lover. I offered her to go see her twice and she avoided answering the question, which hurt me. I wasn't sure what was going on.
Late this September she goes to a convention called Anime Weekend Atlanta, which I am completely fine with her going to cons by herself with her friends, her friends are very protective of her and I trust them with her safety. However, during the con I would message my wife telling her I miss her and I wish I was there, this sparked a mild fight between us and she was upset that I was feeling that way. (Which in my opinion is perfectly normal to feel that way) this conversation led to my first clue about her not wanting me anymore, which was me being clingy and loving. I told her straight up if that was the problem, and she replied with "I feel like I cant breathe" "I want time to be myself" etc.
So far, she's done nothing wrong, these things can happen in a relationship and I will be the first person to do something wrong in this post. I was in fact very loving on her and probably pressured her to a stressful moment where she just wants to be away from me, it took me a while but that is what I truly believed at the time and I seated myself in the "I am wrong" chair.
After AWA 2023 was over, she came back home and told me she is looking to move into a place in Atlanta (Remember this, it is important later). I ask her "well does that include me? We had planned to do that no?" and she explodes telling me she is tired of waiting and just wants to be independant, another fight.
Which lead to an argument about our marriage, where she thinks it is insane and she is very uncomfortable we got married without even living together yet. Despite her agreeing it was to fast forward my process. The US immigration system takes MONTHS for the marriage petition to process. (Src:
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But she had wanted the process to be immediate and was getting impatient, so I compromised and said, well if you want to live on your own a bit you can, thats fine. And that was that.
Days go by where we are just distant. I am in a mutual Discord server with her where I see her playing with a bunch of her friends, which is fine. Being with friends is healthy and encouraged even, all the time should not go to each other.
However I notice after AWA this one guy started to get really close to Hannah and spending a lot of time with her. I will call him "Tom" for this post as to not release any names. I did not know who this "Tom" was, so of course a little tiny alarm bell started going off in my head. I asked her who she was, and she just said he was one of her friend's friend. I said okay, and dropped the subject.
More days go by with nothing. (Our last call together just hanging out was the 16th of October, she dumped me on the 9th of November, but we'll get to that). I notice her going more and more out with her friends from Atlanta, she would drive down and go to korean barbecue with them, malls, arcades, etc. Which I did not mind at all, I think its healthy to get out of the cocoon of a gaming room. What bothered me next was she would tell me she is going to a concert in Vegas, to listen to a metal rock concert. I told her straight up, I was hurt that I wasn't invited at all, cause it's Vegas, and she proceeds to just berate me and tell me that I wouldn't like it so I didnt invite you.
It was a bad fight. She eventually did apologize and say sorry she didn't invite me. (Without ever actually inviting me) But I let it go.
A couple of days later, I notice she is offline for most of the day, and I wonder if she was out with her friends again or whatever. It wasn't until I peeked into her Twitch discord server (which I was a mod of) and I see Tom posting a picture of her unique plushie toy. And I asked her if Tom was at her house. To which she replied yes.
Naturally I believed her (because I loved her at the time)
More days go by and I tell her that I am leaving the mutual discord server cause it just hurts to see her give her time to other people and not me, and that it was for my own health. But we both agree to keep just having space.
This is where things get really bad, so please bear with me as I am emotional writing this.
Not even a DAY later, some plant in that mutual server I left, sends me this screenshot
The man with the redded out face is the previous mentioned Tom, and thats Hannah with him, Tom, then replies in reference to the selfie with my wife calling her "MY baddie"
Naturally, I confronted hannah about this, her response is extremely telling now that it is today.
She refused to see the reason why I was angry and tried to make it seem like the blame was on her. This lasted for an extremely long time and even ended up defending his actions, I never got her to say she understood why I was upset. This was the FIRST major red flag where I thought something was EXTREMELY wrong. I asked her if she would be comfortable screensharing her dms with Tom, she refused, which set off another alarm in me.
I rejoined the mutual server to see if the screenshot was doctored or not, and it wasn't. This is where our relationship should have probably ended, but we cried and loved each other and talked things out, she pulls my heart strings and I pull hers (or so I thought) . So we kept trying, kept giving each other space.
We talked about our relationship one night and really tried to work towards a solution, the Venezuelan TPS program was extended and I was allowed to work for longer, ergo, I did not even need to marry Hannah to be able to work, and I brought that up to her, we can forget about the marriage thing entirely, because this new thing now changes everything, she was receptive to the idea of it, but still felt uneasy and wrong about me. Told me she would think about it. (She never got back to me about it)
The next day my dog got suddenly very ill, and I had to admit her into the an intensive care unit, shes an old dog, 13 years old and my partner in crime, honestly. She means so much to me. Her reaction to this information, despite saying she still loves me, was not good for my health.
Blocked by the only person that could console me tore me apart even more.
Then yesterday, the 10th of November, she would go to a concert called "Emo Nite" in Atlanta, of course, "Tom" was there, but my insecurity was so high, I had a little insurance thing for myself and if I was wrong, I was willing to take the whole brunt of it all. But I was not wrong.
I had a mutual online friend who was also going to Emo Nite, he was a viewer so he knew of me and Hannah, and I subtly asked him the favor to keep an eye on her and make sure she's safe. And I was so right. I was sent pictures of her clinging on to Tom, holding hands with him while Tom held her by her ass, it was clear she was drunk, but she has always had drinking problems. I will not share these pictures publicly, but even in some of her instagram friend's stories, you can see her clinging to Tom. She kissed all sorts of girls and strangers too. And she even just admitted this to me just now as I am typing this. This is went and told her I was done with her, I dont know why she would just lie to me, why she couldn't just say that she got a crush on another guy and wanted to leave me. I don't know.
Her drinking problems extend all the way back years.
She would just get belligerent sometimes when drinking
She would get irrationally jealous and overprotective. This was a time where I wanted to collab with another vtuber. (I dont do much collabs anyways, Im bad at them)
Now I am going to start here and say I have not been an angel in this relationship either, I have done some bad as well.
Back in 2021 me and Hannah both went to Anime Weekend Atlanta. It was a blast, up until the last night.
She got extremely drunk and ended up kissing this stranger in front of my eyes in a crowded room, and then proceeded to hold hands with this stranger and go to a different hotel floor, to where they both went into a different hotel room, and when I tired to retrieve my girlfriend, I was turned away at the door. Following this I stormed out of Atlanta on a one way ticket, furious and heartbroken.
This is where I should have ended things with her in retrospect. But we talked it out of course, she says she was drugged and out of control that night and doesnt remember what happened. But most importantly she apologized and showed remorse.
A month prior to this incident she admits to me that she had kissed another person again.
(So at this point I just want to say, I believe Hannah has this moral scale in her brain where she thinks making out with other people while being in a relationship is morally okay)
So here's the part where I fuck up, after those two incidents, I end up meeting a friend whom I will call "Sam" to keep them anonymous. After the AWA incident, me and Sam got to be close buddies, mostly because we played the same games together, one night I got drunk and vulnerable and vented out my frustrations to Sam, in a moment of pathetic stupidity and weakness, I let myself give in and proceeded to act indecent with them over Discord DMs behind Hannah's back, specifically, sharing hentai pictures to each other and stuff. I felt awful for it and so did Sam, we tried out best to just bury it behind us. And I kept this act a secret from Hannah for 2 years, which is the second next thing I did extremely wrong, I should have told her instantly, the night it happened, but I felt so bad and guilty over it, not to mention weak and pathetic. I never once had feelings or wanted to persue Sam, never felt a single ounce of romance or feelings for them. And I tried to convey this to her. And she seemed to accept.
So we officially break up, she dumps me and makes it clear she does, but she does so in a way that tries and reassures me that she still loves me and only me but I see her grow more and more close to "Tom" I see them playing games together, on Spotify together, and doing stuff Hannah would usually ridicule me for doing in the past. Naturally I would confront her about this and she would constantly tell me she's not dating him, she doesn't want anyone else, etc.
There are also multiple times where I get very emotional and angry during a fight and just call her a bitch and use mean words, I regret it every time after Ive calmed down, but it was wrong of me every time to do it, even if things were a little heated. I called her used goods and basically a whore and I regret it inmensely. I was drunk and heated but I know I was completely in the wrong to let words guide my rage like that instead of reason.
On Monday I went to a bar with a coworker friend, she and I started talking and she lent me an ear about the situation because I appreciate a female's POV in this just in case I am wrong in anything. And well, this is what happened.
And while I am typing this she uses it as an excuse for what happened at "Emo Nite"
https://i.imgur.com/bDJt6TU.png
Then today I noticed that her and "Tom" are now matching pfps in their friend server and now have the "Taken" role which was a role to signify their relationship status. As well as them going out together constantly, almost every day. Their constant flirting in her own discord. I don't think it takes a genius to figure this shit out.
https://i.imgur.com/QLvzDCH.png
https://i.imgur.com/6Yw6Iy0.png
https://i.imgur.com/ueFYEFb.png
"Tom" did not have this role when she and I were together.
There's probably stuff I've left out, things I will remember later, but the grand truth is that I'm sure Hannah doesn't love me anymore, her distance and making out with others should have proved that.
I dont know why she wasn't just honest with me from the start, but the constant string of lies and deceit along with hiding and completely vague reason for dumping me just sent my mind into a turmoil. I'm hurt, I've been so fucking hurt for almost two months, my mind spinning with "why" and "what can I do". I'm a pretty sheltered and lucky guy, bu
TL;DR My wife went to AWA 2023, met this guy and fell in love with him instantly and started replacing me, all the while she was telling me that she didn't like him and that she still loved me and only me, until I found out that was a lie a whole month later.
now and you might have enough to hold it in acknowledging she's a 
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