Regarding recent graduation announcement (warning: long-lovie-dovie-icky-sticky read ahead)
Hi I am Nikki Rei, and I was the last member of the first generation of idol company.
We started off really rough, we screwed up a lot, we lost a lot of you along the way, and time passed by… and I stayed, struggling financially to survive, investing money I didn’t have, time, sacrificed my health… sometimes for the cost of nothing… and no matter what happened I never gave up, I knew my goals- to inspire and make people happy, which I earned almost every time during this journey. but sadly it’s hard to do that when you are unhappy, either if your feelings are just or not. So I had to make a hard decision, please don’t be mad.
My experience was not as of the usual vtuber. Honestly I didn’t even know what it means, I wasn’t a weeb, this world was so foreign to me. I wanted to be a streamer and I didn’t understand why would I cover my face pretending I’m someone else? (and It’s very nice face I swear)
But to my surprise it wasn’t the case.
All my life I was nothing but another fish swimming with the crowd, lived for everyone else. I did a lot of stuff, but never stuck to anything, didn’t love anything, didn’t hate anything, with nothing to say, with no stand… a shell of a person.
But then, Nikki came into my life, and not long afterwards you came into my life, and I was forced to know myself better, cause how can you relate and trust someone when you have nothing to relate to? if I wanted to earn your trust so I can achieve my goals, I couldn’t stay a shell.
Creating Nikki was the first time I finally listened to myself. I forcefully squeezed out of me my likes and dislikes, my stands, my wishes… and with those new discoveries I built Nikki to fit me exactly. through Nikki I learned who I am, I became a whole. Nikki is me, I am Nikki.
That’s why Nikki means the world to me, she is not just a model of a cute anime girl to hide behind. She is a symbol of my overcomes and my growth as a person.
But it’s not just Nikki.
It is also you.
You guys helped get to were I am. with your interest in me, you tought me what my interests are, you gave me a purpose, you motivated me to be creative to open up to new thingys, when I was first diagnosed with fibromyalgia and fell into depression, you gave me a reason to get out of bed until I rose up. you saved me…
For all of those reasons , that is why no matter how hard the journey was, like my fibromyalgia pain, I made it a background noise, endured and kept going, for I believed in me, in my goals, and I had you by my side.
on June 30th I will be graduating from idol, and will continue the journey as an indie vtuber.
even though it might be even harder from now on, since I have never done it before on my own, and I’m scared for my future, I’m happy to have a chance to continue my journey as Nikki with you and my vtuber friends.
And for all my kouhais throughout these 3 years, I wish nothing but success and happiness. even though you probably don’t need it cause you are all so awesome, please know if you ever need a friend, a listening ear, I’ll be there, forever as your dai senpai
I love you all so much
I will be having a q&a stream later today on my YouTube channel, to answer any of your questions. see you there!