I think I might have gotten a bit too parasocial with vtubers I had this reoccurring dream where my friends went to a party without me and I felt down about it and in my dream, Nina is comforting me about it in a mom way not “mommy” but genuinely concerned about me, now the problem is that evertime I watch her stream there’s a small part of my subconscious that genuinely believes she’s my mom which makes it weird for me to watch her since is like I gaslighted myself into believing my parasocial relationship with her is real, I mean wouldn’t you find it weird to watch your mom stream as a vtuber, is been going on for a few weeks now with me dreaming about me doing mundane everyday stuff with her, I even imagined doing normal ass laundry with her, what started as a joke with me calling her mommy turned into a real thing with me not being able to see her as just a vtuber, the weird thing is I jokingly call Kronii my wife but I know is just a joke with Nina is different, a part of my psyche might be having deep-seated mommy issues, but you are the reason I wake up every day, I’ll still love you forever and always