Pippa is a numberfag and like big numbers. Pippa NEEDS the big numbers because otherwise she feels like a failure and when she feels like a failure she feels like she must end it all. Sadly, for Pippa, this hits her with the thing she doesn't like, a big fast retarded chat she can't really have conversations with, if she is successful and has big numbers she hates it, if she is a failure and has small numbers she hates it.
For real, she actually seems to struggle with wanting large numbers and if she doesn't have them she feels like a failure and wanting a small slower chill chat. It kind of feels like Pippa is inevitably going to resent streaming if she doesn't get comfortable with having one or the other.